how i spend my annual leave at my hometown

Last 2 weeks im back to my hometown, Kuantan.
Everything is so peaceful there. And especially my parents were there.
Life was so nice on that 4 days. As compared to Cyberjaya, at least I wont feel lonely and wont feel unsafe.
Well, that few days was nice enough for me.
My mum, who were still working as an assistant to a pet grooming shop. As cheerful as ever although she didn't admit miss both of her sons. :P
long time didn't eat dishes made by mum, as I enjoy her cooking. The feel was nice. Feel comfortable.
Her cooking was tasty. Well now their life is a bit quite as compared when my younger brother is still having his form 6 studies at my hometown. To compared when all of us are together, I still fell something is missing. Something that makes our life merrier, is the arrival of all family members. Even without 1 of them, life would not be that merrier.


Somehow to think of it, both of them were old already. When looking at them, I felt kind of wanting to take care of them. And mum gives me a shock by showing her hand bitten by 1 of the dog. As per her words, actually the would is quite deep. Its just she doesn't want her sons to be so worried over her. Well, mum was tough. Tough enough to handle our lives during our darkest hours. She was tough, a lady that do indeed I respect the most at all times.
From here, all housework is be done by me. What mum can do is to eat and sit and rest. I will handle everything. :)


our home becomes cleaner, I wonder is it because the both of us were not there for quite sometime.
Bro had gone to UMS (UNIVERSITI MALAYA SABAH) and im working at Cyberjaya.
That is 1 thing should be happy with because normally we will create havoc in our home.
Now mum and dad alone in the house. Less people stay, more cleaner. (mum is glad about this)
my beloved PC that I didn't touch for so long ever since I got my laptop, still functioning and perform at its best.


Those 4 days, keep accompanying my parents, dad off on Sunday. We went out whole day, doing quite lot of stuff also. And on Monday is my mum's off day, we went for a nice breakfast. We chat whole day in the house and cook together. Even if my friends calls to have a drink, on the last day only I go out with them and drank about an hour then I will be going back to prepare for my next day departure.
The next day, where the day I doesn't hope going back so soon but no choice. Still have to work.
As I going out from my house, I keep on asking myself a few questions.

1. they are old now rite?
2. Is it time for me to go back take care of them?
3. Can I sustain myself back in my hometown as compare to Cyberjaya?
4. A house that suppose to be noisy and merrier had become quiet, can this be repaired?
5. Where is my duty stands? For the family or myself?

This is the possible questions I asked myself and, the answer haven't be found yet.
Maybe through time to time, I may find the way for the answer I'm searching.
I doesn't want to follow any living example, I want to follow to my own instinct to obtain it.
As for now, the objective is for me to secure my needs in order for me to advance through.
Can human really undergone changes? And in which sort of changes can a human have? I doesn't have the answer yet. Well, if I have the answer. I will sure post up in my blog again.

Anyhow, I will be looking forward for my gathering at UTAR kampar, and maybe will visit my dear at ipoh. I hope to see her too. Sigh~~ miss her so much.

mEng LunG

HOW I SPEND THE DAY AT 22, 23 AND 24 MAY 2009

its been 1 week after my 1st anniversary of relationship with my dear,
dear came to meet me at kl that time and its actually a 1 day trip but eventually she overnight at her cousin's house.


So on 22 I set course to find my dear at ipoh.
On 21, im working at 4pm to 12.30am shift. Therefore I travel on the next day.
So far so good, bus at 8.50am and I had arrive there earlier than expected. Thank god!
I have myself 2 buns as temporary breakfast before I am at ipoh.


After 3 hours journey, at long last, im at my dear's hometown already!! its been almost 1 month I haven't meet my dear and this feeling is so pity. Imagine what is life if didn't meet my own girl friend for a month.
Hahaha



dear meet me at bus station and we went to eat chicken rice, normally I do eat chicken rice but those are malay type of chicken rice ( nasi campur ayam ). and this is a chinese shop! We ordered our favorite, siew yuk!! damn nice.... hard to tahan the taste, if kena h1n1 also worth... kakakaka.


That night we ( me and my gal's family member ) went for a bbq steamboat meal. A BUFFET STEAMBOAT meal. You can eat all you want, I haven't been eating such buffet since graduated from university last year's MAY. Omggg... the amount I eat, cant blame I am so fat now... but im so happy...
hehe...


lastly we went back home with bbq steamboat smell... damn syoik... but before that, I thought of walking at pasar malam... dear says she is sleepy already, real pig... eat already and waiting to sleep.. =_=”.. lastly we went to bed to sleep.


The next morning, as usual... my breakfast is IPOH DIMSUM!!! haha, my fav.... har quin, lo mai kai, chu cheong fan, and my fav char siew pau..... I don't mind paying as long as I can eat this!! me and dear also eat a lot that time but she reserve her stomach to eat indian briyani rice...


at lunch we did eat indian rice, but I didn't touch anything... when I see her rice... I already full... the portion of rice is too much, until I have to sapu for dear.... I also cant take it much more... so full!!!!



eventually, we went back and ready to take car for servicing.
At this place, I am so sorry.... I am so sorry to say harsh words to my dear... and I made her angry... hope I wont made her angry anymore... she is so mad at me until sobbing on her bed when we back home after that... I am very sorry dear, I just thought im joking... I didn't take it seriously... I know how your feelings to me... I love u... muackss...
but....... this time, I was lucky... I hope wont happen to make the same mistake again.


At that nite, we went to another buffet dinner... it was a house warming, her parents are invited... and she took me along... the food there was normal, the catering is okay... still consumable... hahahah!
Me and dear eat quite a lot there... both is P.I.G but we did have a walk after the meal. We went to tesco, I was looking for my magazine and she was looking hers... late at night, we retire ourself to bed as well and preparing for tomorrow.

Sobs sobs... I will be leaving dear soon.....


on 24th, we ate the yong ytau fu that was supposed to be the famous of all shops in ipoh, the taste was okay... quite expensive also...
later that, I board the bus and head back to kl again.


I hope next month I got opportunity to meet my dear again... I really hope I can be by her side 24/7 but that was too far from real... haih... I missed u so much dear.... this few days, somehow I felt emptiness within me... eat alone, talk also through the phone, sleep also alone, at house relaxing also alone... life was very very empty at now, but... I know that I can count on you... I can feel ur with me when im eating, I talk on phone also with you, I sleep also hugging the pillow thinking of you, and at house relaxing also thinking of chatting with you...


I really hope what I've dream will come true...


mEng LunG

Happy 1st anniversary

haha... so fast 1 year already pass by, today is me and my dear's 1st year anniversary being together. Time flow so fast, its like a blink and a year is gone.


Well, hope everything on us will run smooth for the next and a next next next years!!
kaka... hope we go through all obstacles in the our lives...


this few months, a lot tension rising from me and dear. Almost every time want to quarrel, I think this happen because we are separated far a part from each other. Sometime we do feel lonely, at the same time cant help each other. Thus, small problems start to rise up. Small problems normally could be serious if didn't solve it as it will accumulates.


But im not afraid, I have her by my side. We will create our future together.


Sometimes, when I called her on the phone. She seems to just answered like eg; erm, har, hi, hu.
As a customer service officer, this bring signs that she is probably not listening or not paying attention to the speaker. I hope she do change about this. Sometimes I feel like I want to hear more words by her, not like im doing self talk. You imagine, alone at cyberjaya, no friends here, just facing laptop at off work time and lastly face the phone at working time. What I need is some interaction from at least my girl friend. I didn't hope there is improvement on other side, just on this time I wanted some improvement from this. I do hope this problem will be solved.


As for other stuff, I don't see where is the necessary reason to change, I think the current problem I am facing is this only. Its tired when taking 80 calls per day, or may be I have a hard day at work. Customer service, work that demands you to pick up shit from others or the company. Of coz when hanging on the phone with my dear sure want to listen to what she say. At least there are times that I wont need to talk so much as like working. If in this case, means I've been working after off work too( talk to much per day = non stop productivity)


I do really hope we both can improve this type of communication. To me, it is like a 1 side communicating where I just talk non stop and she was just listening non stop. Either if there is any feedback, I wont until she voice it out. Communication is important, and couples are at 2 distances must really communicate well so assure more commitment can be presented into a relationship. The most important thing is that both couple must have a good understanding from each other, and how a couple can be close to 1 another if only a side does all the talk but another side was just listening/ didn't listen at all.


As for time being, me and dear already 1 year, congratulate to both of us. Hope we can go through a lot more obstacles as per now or the future. I believe that we can do it for this time, other times and at all timess. Well, I would like to express the most love to my dear. I hope she knows where is her position in me. And I hope she knows how important she can be to me.


I love you my dear, I hope to hold your hand for this lifetime. Please kindly do accept my offer ya, I'll write a proposal for this and hope will get your signature to approve. ;-)

menglung

Shall Never Surrender

I listen to this song.
I really love it.

Especially the music and the rhythm.

Its nice, rock at opening and ending with softer music.

This song came from a game I played b4,


DeViL MaY Cry 4~~



This is the 4th version of the series and the past 3 series as just as good as this.
The most improvement is on their graphics.
The texture and feature of this game is good and surely need a quite updated graphic card to handle it~

This version,
Starting with a boy called Nero with a demonic arm try to saves his girl friend from abduction from demons.
The story was nice, a lot combo can be made and to those who like combo-ing.
They will definitely love this game.
Previous successor, Dante from previous version are available to being controlled in mid game.


However, as the prologue Dante is on the evil side to kill some high priest called Sanctus.
I even thought Dante who sealed demon world is turning against human.
But eventually he have his motives behind all his doing.
The ending is about this “duo hero” battle against the high priest itself and he is a demon with a bit physical body shape as an angel. Both plays their part. And both were so cool~~
A demon trying to be and angel? Yeah... fine, you guys out there probably hate Sanctus.


The game brings a lot about Nero. Well as for Dante fans, may be Nero would be the main character someday. Who knows? But I love Dante as the main character since I have been playing the version before. He is the so called “foundation” of this game. Without Dante, Devil May Cry wont exist.
Anyhow, no matter who will be the future main character. I do enjoy both as well. Hope you guys try this game. Although this is not a very new game, I enjoyed it a lot.


Devil May Cry forever as long as there is a heart in them. ;-)

below is the song lyrics.

1 ending and 1 prologue.


Album / Collection: Devil May Cry 4 OST

Sung By Jason "Shyboy" Arnold

The time has come and so have i
I laugh last cause you came to die
The damage done, the pain subsides,
And i can see the fear glim when i look in your eye

I never kneel and i never rest. (rest)
You can tear the heart from my chest (my chest)
I'll make you see what i do best,
Of succeed as you breath your very last breath (last breath)
Now i know how the angel fell, (angels fell)
I close the tale and i know it too well,
I make you wish you have sold your soul,
When i take you down and send you straight to hell

My army comes from deep within
Beneath my soul beneath my skin
As sure I'm ending I'm about to begin,
My strengthness pain and i will never give in
I'll tell you now I'm the one to survive,
You never pray, my feet, my stride
I'll have you choke on your own demise,
I make the angels scream
(And the devil cry)

My honored brethen
(My honored brethen)
We come together
(We come together)
To unite as one
(To unite as one)
Against those that are damned
(Against those that are damned)
We show no mercy
(We show no mercy)
For we have none
(For we have none)
Our enemies shall fall
(Our enemies shall fall)
As we uprise
(As we uprise)
To claim our fate
(To claim our fate)
Now and forever
(Now and forever)
We'll be together
(We'll be together)
Love and hate
(We love and hate)

They will see, we'll fight until eternity,
Come with me, we'll stand and, fight together.
Through our strength, we'll make a, better day, tomorrow,
We, shall never surrender

They will see, we'll fight until eternity,
Come with me, we'll stand and fight together,
Through our strength, we'll make a better day tomorrow,
We, shall never surrender

They will see, we'll fight until eternity,
Come with me, we'll stand and fight together,
Through our strength, we'll make a better day tomorrow,
We, shall never surrender

They will see, we'll fight until the eternity,
Come with me, we'll stand and, fight together.
Through our strength, we'll make a, better day, tomorrow,
We, shall never surrender

(We shall never surrender)
(We shall never surrender)




Out Of Darkness


Listen to my voice calling you,
Pulling you out of darkness.
Hear the devil's cry of sin,
Always turn your back on him.


With the wind you go,
Still I dream of your spirit leading you back home.
I will give my gifts to you,
Grow your garden,
watch it bloom.


The light in your eyes is an angel up high,
Fighting to ease the shadow side.
Hearts will grow though having to bend,
Leaving behind all things in the end.


Listen to my voice calling you,
Pulling you out of darkness.
Hear the devil's cry of sin,
Always turn your back on him.


Well, this 2 songs. Reminds me of something.

Not to surrender

and

Not to do anything bad.

Not matter what happen, there will be always a solution.
Do not cross to a dark path, things wont be the same when you step in it.
Don't surrender so easily when there is hardship as we must solve every problem arises.
Don't lose hope, there will be always a way. Find the way.



mEng LunG

im worrying for you

Sometimes, I really don't know how to tell her...


I want to actually help her family as well, but I don't know what I can help.
She wants to help her family so much, will this be our greatest challenge 'WE' must face or 'SHE' must face.?
What I mean is, will she share up her burden with me?
I don't want her to be so stressed up with her life. I want to be a part in her life too. But for these time, can I tell her what I felt?
What I'm afraid is that I have being a part of her pressure also. But can I eventually just keep my feelings?


This puzzles me a lot actually, me and my family also does have financial difficulties during previous years before this economic down turn, but we can go it through. Or maybe what me and my family face during the past years is not that serious that her. But look at the bright side, me and my family share for this burden. With myself studying at kl, and they keep saving money on their daily essentials usage. Doesn't this gives me impact on my part as the eldest child of the family?


For what I can say is that, in bad times... do save a lot, instead of using air con.. why not use our ceiling fan? As for our meals, dinner, lunch and breakfast that costs a lot.. why not change to meals that are simpler and most importantly it is a full meal.


I believe that in bad times due to economic downturn, there will be something good to make our lives more meaningful. Be more conservative, use other alternative than using expensive materials. Use ceiling fan more than air con, cut lesser expenses on utilities and of coz expenses on other stuff. Go for cheap meals than dining in expensive restaurants.


The most crucial thing is where sharing comes into life. Share burden along with all family members. If 1 brain is not enough to think then there is a few more brains to assist a person too. Don't worry, there will be a lot of choices in life but is that how a person want to choose and how to initiate their action on it. I don't believe that when time is bad for now, it wont go better on the future. Be patient, be strong and don't lose hope. When there is hope, there is a way. Find the way.


What I want to express here is, I am always here when you need me. Please remember there is a love one who very care about you and not just you alone, Is about the whole of you and your family as well.


Meng Lung

A great weekend for me and dear~~( 7 March 2009 )

A great weekend for me and dear~~
last saturday and sunday, me and dear have a good time together.
Its a longtime we didnt have good times together, haha... 2 weeks without her is like a few months didnt meet each other.

I arrive late on friday around 11pm, that time we went to eat Ipoh “nga choy kai” taugeh chicken~~ haha... nice la, but abit salty... after that we went to a pasar malam just beside the place we eat dinner..
that pasar malam is pity, nothing much can see, buy, and walk... walking in the pasar malam that dont seem to be a pasar malam.... weird.... anyhow, we went back after that~


The next day, that is saturday, we went to TM to cut and enquire bout streamyx stuffs... stupid streamyx, cant use back old account, need pay rm75 to reapply and activate the new account... what da heck....
so dear cut her Sg Long streamyx line and we left TM to our next destination.


Now... at parade, I plan to eat buffet with her but I cant seem to have any idea... after a lot time searching on the net, at last.... the shop name is “Iro Iro” japanese style buffet.... cheap and nice for the price of RM30 plus taxes... but.... the shop open its buffet at nite at 6pm... hahaha


at the mean time, we walk and shop at parade, bought 2 shirts... ate western at “Junction Kopitiam”... walk whole of parade... kakakaka...
western is nice, I ordered fish and chip while dear ordered nuggets... both is delicious and cheap too~~
me and dear enjoy ourselves for that meal... nice ya ;-)


the plan of my dear to hang out with her ex-colleagues were cancelled, 1 car accident, 1 having exam, another 1's mum is discharged from hospital, so the plan were cancelled... dear feel quite sad also, coz bad things happened to her ex-colleagues.... aiksss


so we went back after that, while waiting until 6pm for our big meal


at the time we went there, just have a couple dining on that shop.. our 1st impression is this meal is not that great, but when we are in.... everything changes... there were sushi, tepanyaki, steamboat with twin soup, and the normal fry rice and spaghetti~~ everything was fine, meals were ok but what I expect if comparing with a RM66 japanese buffet meal at 1 Utama “SHOGUN”


ahha, finish... paid and go have a walk, me and dear cant move to much and fast as our tummy is filled with food, imagine la... pay rm30 and need eat back rm60 value of food.... think twice when u do that, you'll end up losing it at toilet later.... kakakakakakakka... yucks~!!!


on sunday, we went to jusco.... we ate there, shop abit stuff there and guess what....... WE WENT FOR A MOVIE, hahahahahahahahhahahahaha.... Im so happy is becoz the fact that both me and dear didnt step on cinema for our past 6 months.... we watch that new singapore movie, erm.... I give a rating of 3 out of 5 to that movie, but we have our fun time in there... listen to ppl snoring in da cinema, good man.... hahaha


so, in that day... nothing special happens so I end it up here. I reach Cyberjaya at around 4pm on Monday, tired, exhausted, and indeed im very miss my dear.... dear, I wish we could have such good times together a little bit longer... muacks... we'll have our chances some other day~~ :-*

mEng LunG

our nite~~ EPISODE 1 Sunday, Feb, 2009 at 11.13pm

Dear dear dear~~ our 1st valentines~~
hehe... I'm so happy to know you like it... the things I gave you, the surprise there for you and the moment we had together. Your smiles still are fresh in my mind even if you are away from me. Hehe..
dear dear, to me... I know I am not a good bf, those whom don't have a car at the age of 24 this year and a person who is not capable to have the necessary money to buy you something for some occasion. I just want you to know that I will do my best to save the best thing for you and I'll get the worst of it.
Anyhow, me and you... I hope I can be with together. Muacksss

so, the day goes like this :

supposely I go meet dear at 10am at Puduraya yesterday, but I wake up late (hehe... excited, she come tmr ma) so I reach there around 10.30am la... sorry sorry ya... we rearrange another meeting at Jalan Hang Tuah coz we plan to go Sg Wang shopping on that day... kaka... damn Monorail, I hate their signboard and grumppy dear very “beh song”(angry) me dy... of coz la, late already plus go wrong platform... kena, betul-betul kena damn “gao lat” de... fuh, imagine la... tiger wins dragon... I cant believe it... hahahahaha...

we arrive eventually... thank god~~ if not, I lagi kena more... certainly that day was so damn hot... candle can melt when kena sun light, so I kena from dear again again... really tak habis habis kena 1... but luckily she is not so siu hei... hahaa thx dear, muack muackzzzz... we went 1 shop by 1 shop looking for clothes... seriously, what I saw was “all RM25, RM 10 or RM20” and a word “ NO TRYING” what da fuck! Cheap but no trying, what da fuck is this.. is buy then not fit, come change back again?? then 1 more word “ NO REFUND” I lagi furious... so dear just bought 1 working attire, others cant try, how we dare buy??? so so so stupid... Consumer Association didnt do anything izit??? or dont have any complaints done?? omgggg... but lucky, if not... I gotta take a lot things from dear, kakakakakaka... joking only~~

then we went to Times Square, I think I like here better than Sg Wang... decoration is better, at least got valentine feel~ poor dear, her slippers made her feet pain so she had bruises and we decide its better to have a new pair of slippers that without straps or anything that can hurt her foot... we bought RM10 slipper, she wore it and felt relieve... of coz, I saw a bit blood... see also heart pain la.. aikss~~ good if she felt better...hehehe.... again, “ALL RM 10 and NO TRYING” is almost appeared on all shops... buy clothes also lost its freedom... what da heck~~

at last, its goin back time!!! we took Monorail to KL Central and take KLIA express!! RM9.50 per journey!!!! omggg.... journey to Putrajaya is damn expensive!! no choice, no bus there... bad luck o... so hot and no bus... so we wait until aboard KLIA express...and lastly took KL Rapid back Cyberjaya, at home.. we watch the TVB drama, last 2 episodes... try the DVD I bought at Sg Wang and rest abit before going dinner.. hehe, time is running fast, im damn tired now... gotta have a good sleep, I'll try to continue nextime~~ wait for EPISODE 2!