control or release... oni 1 way!! hehehe~~

hihi~~ nothing to do now... trying to blog out rather than of being inside the room studying. damn bored~~ haiz...

As for now, that matter really is troubling me. To CONTROL or to RELEASE. Oh man, it was something "b.i.g" to be decided for the next level.



1st alternative, to CONTROL.

Izit possible to control ur feelings over the person you "l.o.v.e". The answer is, 'yes, of coz you may'. The only problem is that how much it costs to control it. A feel for someone was something that you unexpected and unpredicted. And for a person to control your own feeling for someone was very suffering.. opss, too extreme... i may well say that its painful.

You cant act like wut you usually does, you cant say wut you wanted to say to her, and most of all is that you cant try to love her as how you wanted too. Its like hanging in the air where you cant reach towards heaven and cant drop to the hell. keke~~ nice description rite? between hell and heaven.. like in da movie.. haha! sorry for cold jokes~~ or craps you may assume it to be... ;-)



2nd alternative, to RELEASE.

This is where we are talking about risks involved in it. Ur hearts pumping like hell when after you release or i would say that confess the feeling you have to her. Pray that you'll get favorable rewards, if not... i think your hearts stop pounding adi~~ haha!! means your dead man... dead... in the coffin or cremated into dusk.. hehehe~~

Well, what i wanna say here is that... It is good to release out, rewards are optional, whether you get it onot... it doesnt matter.. wut's important is that you hav the guts and confident to say the 3 words which is ( I L*** Y** )... hahaha!! At least you will have experiences and guess wut, practice makes perfect babe~! no kidding yo~ it really does... try more get more... but not try more die more... plz... dun try it if you hav a weak heart... dun make your frens or family paying for your funeral... cost alot money juz to dispose you out of this world.. haha! crapping oni la... ntg serious ya...

For such matter, i will hand it to time to decide which alternative that should be chosen. time, i really need it... argh!!!!!! fighting with time crisis... damn it!!

Anyhow, the final exam will be haunting me on 12th and 14th DECEMBER 2007.. man, im more affraid of taking exam rather than confessing to a gal... once you fail, you may never turn it back... understand wut im saying.??

So, i would like to wish all those who were having exam a very goodluck and after the finals... its christmas time!! let's party dudes~~~ yuhoo... trying to play santa in this x-mas... dunno got the opportunity onot~ yeah babe!

1 DEC 2007 at 9.30pm

Erm... what I’m gonna write at this moment? Strange things keep playing in my mind and it’s endless. I would hope such things wouldn’t bother me at all but yet, I still dunno what the problem is. It’s all started yesterday when I was going for a movie at leisure mall with C, M and YH. Before the movie I was just as energetic as ever but after the movie finishes, I felt emptiness like I had lose something I always have by my side after finish watching a movie. I still can’t figure it out. There is one thing; I certainly hope that my brain is not playing mind games with me. I just can guess what the problem with me is and I hope that was not true. It had been within me since I attended an event which my society takes part for thumb painting and it’s called “GegarU” that is organized by another campus at PJ.
Ever since that day, my new chapter of life was starting to ignite. And it’s up to me to bear my own DESTINY~

mEng LunG