I love my dear.
After all these months, I felt that it’s hard to get on with my life without you. All the laughter, all the joy, and all the moments we have… its all fresh in my mind like it happened yesterday. I dunno really know how much deep I loved you for, it felt like I’m out of direction when you’re not around me. My mind is blank and so as my soul. It’s like so hard without seeing your face even for an hour.
Now, I had my job. And thanks for you who made impossible to be so possible. To me, you gave me the motivation and determination to go fort with every obstacles in front of me. Seriously, if there are no you around me, it won’t happen. Maybe I’ll be sunk deeper into a colder abyss or drown into it without noticing how I die.
I have to admit that, there are 3 months we didn’t meet each other and this was bad to anyone of us. But I have to lie myself in order to get myself being positive thinking. I kept asking questions to myself like;
- What is my dear doing?
- Where is my dear currently?
- How safe is my dear, hope to protect her.
Well all these question build me up in me that I’ll hang on and won’t lose hope of you when we seldom meet each other. All I want to say is, this is really a test for us, a test of faith between us. I seriously telling that I want to be with you as long as possible, I want to marry with a person like you, I want you to be my last person ever I love in this world.
I can say that you’re a person who really completes me, the smells that attracts me and the feeling you gave me really is some kind of things that I love bout you. Well, I can surely tells you that I’m a really serious type when into relationship and I am willing to sacrifice every good stuff for you and I will get the bad stuff for myself.
My feelings were too great for you; I can’t stop myself for loving you too deep now. I really do love you a lot.
I really like to appologize to you for everything i've done. and i regret doing such thing.
Lastly, I hope you do read this blog of mine. I dun want you to think that whether I’ve lost feelings for you or you’re not important to me anymore. I want you to know that you are someone who really completes my life not just now and its forever. And now i had a job, i'll try to best to be a good bf whom you can surely count on.
I love you, Choon Pui.
from: mEng LunG
