Wednesday, December 24, 2008 at 1.21pm

Hehe.. This is my 1st blog for someone I love~~


Last Friday I went Ipoh to see Dear, omg… it was almoz 8 hours from 9am to 4.30pm plus this stop and that stop @_@ I reach around 5.15pm. The journey was okay.. And I would recommend the bus company called “konsortium express”… our local bus company. These buses were spacious, with my kind of height and body size.. I can fit very well.. So to those kuci-rats(small size individuals) don’t worry. What I’m afraid is too much space made you feel uncomfortable. You know that bus doesn’t provide seat belt so the inertia could cause to throw back and forth.


I reach there and find hanyit while waiting for my Dear arrive. So we went jusco, go Mc. D for our 1 year once prosperity burger… omgggggggggg… really so gao lat... damn syiok~~ very enjoy~~ hahaha…


Around 5.20pm, she arrives there earlier than us.. Lastly I meet her.. omgggg again… the feeling of meeting her back relieves me from a lot of stress and tension on myself… well, I wanna hug her but the amount of people crowding at Mc. D was like an ant hill…. Feel paiseh, what to do~






We eventually have prosperity burger that we planned before having ideas bout goin to Mc.Ds…


Dear says doesn’t wanna eat but I still insisted to give her a bite of mine… that time was special… the long time look of her face was brought out by eating my pros burger.. I wish I could see her eat more too~ hahahaha… maybe she’ll be fatter when I’m always being with her.. Well, this is something I love bout her, of coz I wanna see it more often… hoho~


After that, we went window shopping spree with hanyit, this fellow tries to buy a wallet for his girl-friend.. And we search for everywhere on jusco for it… some of it was expensive, some of it was ugly, some of it looks a bit shady like old woman’s wallet and etc… until a time he cant take it, he told us go walk ourselves… he say paiseh wan us accompany him go find, both of us did walk whole jusco but we found ourself nothing to be bought here… aikss


At the end of the day, we went home through the raining day.. The Rain was so heavy that I could barely see, it made Dear drives slowly… even with specs, it was no use.. too heavy…


8 hours of journey in da bus makes me damn tired so I decided to sleep early…


The next day, fulamak~~ dimsum at morning… syok o~ walao wei… how come Ipoh people wont be fat… the dimsums is damn damn damn delicious… once you bite, it wont stop… wash~ I cant barely take it when come to think of it… omgggggggg… but bare in mind that, no matter how nice the dimsum is, the price also will be nice… unavoidable… paying for it was worth… hahahahaha


We ate until almoz rm20.70 which I could say its cheap because, kuantan the ulu place even got higher price with the amount we ate that time… hahaha… whole stomach bloated… we really gluttonizes dimsums until cant fit anything into our mouth… my goodness,, the “har quin” and “sui mai” walao wei… makan like no other business. But Dear dun eat prawns, quite a waste for her and I gave those she can eat such as fry sotong balls, glutinous rice( lo mai kai) and the ever nice “char siu pao”.. with juz rm20.70 I felt it was worth eating happily with Dear~~


After that, we went shopping.. at parade, I have to agree for women there are tones of stuffs to buy with a limited amount of money… Dear wanna buy a few clothes but she didn’t coz the price was not so good… aikss.. but lastly she bought a beg, and it’s a white 1… quite ok.. Suits her very much and its was at a reasonable price, around rm 39 or 49… both of us walk whole parade a few rounds but we took extra turns to Watsons and Guardian because Dear wanna buy her lotion, make up remover, lenses sterile and etc… Dear says she can feel each rm 50 are removing from her purse.. Haha… yaya, I agree.. Really can see a few rm 50 removed… fuh~~ sakitzz hati.. so the day end here and we go back to her house… hehe


The 3rd day… erm, refresh back first… hanyit ask “yam cha” and we sat ourselves at old town. We chat and chat quite a lot of things.. Bout certain people “pao-ing yi lai” and talking bout how “DBKL or MPKJ” cleaning stuffs… hahahaha… laugh there like gila also,… pengsan… around 1pm, its time hanyit took off.. his bus was at 3pm so he went back get ready himself to his journey to kl… we went to tesco that was juz opposite of oldtown.. go jalan jalan awhile..


There goes another rm50… haha… we bought ourself a bottle of root beer, 1 packet of pre-made soup, a packet of 1 kg fries and a few things I cant remember of it… I came up with an idea of buying her ice cream, nice 1 and an expensive 1 that was juz rm30 something but Dear cancel it and put it back to the correct place… she says wait me get a job and good salary only buy her anything… well, I dare to say this gave me motivation to go for any job that were willing to hire me into the company… the day ended after we went out to have a city tour… seriously, I dunno there is a sunway lagoon at Ipoh… I don’t think I’m a jungle or sakai people… but I really dunno… even my family members… hahahaha… that place was nice… juz that its not our luck at that time, raining heavy again and cant see clear of the things inner area of sunway lagoon from the outside parking area… hehe… we planned to go home after that but stop at a makan place… suddenly hungry… opsss… we orders a piece of fry chicken and 10 sticks of satay ayam… quite ok… satay was not hard and solid… its soft and easy to chew.. hehehe… now, we really went back home.. And prepare for my depart from Ipoh to kuantan… sobsss~~



I wonder why, no matter where the two of us go, people are always looking at us…

1. Are we that weird??




2. They saw ghost in shopping mall??




3. Are we too ugly??




4. They envy to see two couple that are so match?? Hahahahahaahhaha…

Kidding only~ well the answer remains a question to us…


Monday Morning comes and Dear has the idea of goin Mc.D for breakfast... we ordered our dishes and took pics after the meals at Mc.Ds… nice… although it’s a simple breakfast, to me; it was a happy moment in my life before boarding the bus back to kuantan… Dear gotta go work at that time so I waited at the bus station around 10am, and lastly arrives at kuantan around 5.30 to 6pm… its like people go work at 9am and off work at 5 or 6pm… haha



Well Dear, thx a lot for receiving your generous hospitality.. and I really enjoy every moments being around with you~~ aikss… come to think of it… 7 days per week is not enough… I would wish for more… from now on, I misses you more than before and have more feelings for you than ever… I hope can see you next month also… hehe, I try to focus on 2 things like what you told me… dun worry Dear…


Although I maybe the lousiest boy-friend ever, I wish you know that you are always deep into the bottom of my heart… I love you Dear~






mEng LunG (明龙)

Wednesday, December 24, 2008 at 12.52pm

Hello~~ anyone there?? Knock* knock* hehe


Hi, I’m back at last to the blog world and it’s a long time I haven’t write any blogs as I don’t have internet at home and I have to walk myself to cyber café(CC) which the walking distance can make you thin… haha~~ but seriously, who goes CC to write blogs?? Normally, there users who applying on9 jobs, on9 gambling =_=” and of coz the most important of all….. “GAMING”  powerful word at CC…


Lolzz… wutevar the reason is, I decided to type at home and post it at CC… and that is not a choice~~( house no $$$ apply streamyx, what to do… have to save, save and save.)

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Looks like there were a lot tension’s arising around my group friends particularly after few months back ending our convocations. There is a lot stories bout people “pao yi lai” means by having a third party involved in current relationship. There is a lot stories bout this and that person started relationship. There is issues bout shifting houses. And lastly there are issues facing the reality world of the workforce.

Talking bout “pao-ing yi lai”, I have to apologize for bringing this matter out… kaka… plz don’t hurt me, you guys know who I’m referring to… for next time I’m going Sabah, don’t kill me ya… hoho

Well, bout this matter something I could really ask is… did you lose anyone before?? Someone who you won’t see anymore and chat anymore and importantly, you won’t be with the person closest to you anymore in this world?? Juz for a hint, a person does not have any traumatic childhood background cant answer such questions. I do loss a few of my friends, I think there is 5 or 6 of them… different gang of groups, some are closest to me during form 1, 3, 4, lower and upper 6… someone who accompanies by walking back home, someone who will struggle for food with a bunch of gangs, and someone who join you “yam cha” at the warong outside of my house junction.


Haha… life was so beautiful being with them... But it is painful when each of them leaving this world... Does anyone understand what kinda feelings I had? I can say it is not something I can tell here in da blog… I juz wanna type out for:
1st killing my time

2nd juz feel to type something

3rd tell out what I feels bout this “pao yi lai” stuff


No offence to anyone involved in my blog… really, seriously… any offence… hehe


I personally think that, a person having third party involved were not those who appreciates current partner in their relationship. The will of the person are not strong enough. And what I can say here is, they did not loss anyone before. I’ve heard a lot of friends saying; always being with their own partner make them have a word called “sien” which was to meant by bored. I’ve heard it from M, H, T and a lot more friends from my current university. I kept wondering why humans may come to the extend by thinking through this way. Is the word “sien” is applicable to any relationship??

To my opinion, try answer questions like; what do you do when your partner wont be able to be by your side every single day and night?? What happen if your partner is no more in this world where you can see their smiles, laughter, were you can share your personal moments with??? Doesn’t it made you realize that time was so short and time moves too fast to realize your old and losing everyone in your lives?


To myself, I’m not to say that I’m agreeing or disagreeing to those individuals who thinks of being bored always attached to their partner, I am a person who enjoys and appreciates every single second or minutes being with my partner. If I have the opportunity being with her 24 hours for 7 days, I hope god gave me 9 or 10 days per week instead of the 7 given. I dare to say, if I ever mention bout I’m being bored with my partner, please feel free to remind me of what I’ve written in my blog. I dare to say I wont ever come a cross with the word “sien” with my partner for every single day I’m with her.


The purpose of typing this blog is trying to give out message that, treasure all of the time being with your partner and don’t neglect every single time you could spend with your partner.


I do believe that you can’t predict what is going to happen tomorrow. Anything could happen while your not aware with. Currently there is 1 sort of a friend of mine whom I played basketball with during younger age, slashed by thief at the morning at his own car porch when he’s trying to go into the car. The next day, pictures bout him published into the paper. I forgot what date already…. Aiksss… Player down, I repeat... player is down…


Haha… this is the moment, I would like to end up this post of blog now. Please, some of you guys out there who add-in the word “sien” in their relationship, take some of my advice… I don’t know if there will be anyone would agree with my opinions and thoughts but that is what I am and what I’ll be. As for anyone felt offended in this blog. I would like to beg for your forgiveness okay? Apologies to anyone involved into my blog. And I would like to wish everyone a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. And take note that, Chinese New Year is juz around the corner, new clothes, new stuffs and of coz no new partners okay?? Hahahahahaha

untitled 12 April 2008 at 3.41pm

Sometimes what you expect to get is not what you will actually get. Things may not run smoothly as what you wanted. Some may success and yet some may fail to do so. Of everything that happened in our lives, there is nothing such as whose correct and who’s wrong. Haih…

Well, I should have continued my story but due to lack of idea I had to postpone it to another time… lolz…




The person that you truly have feelings for will eventually hurt you the most. In this case, should I say “for example: me”… coz it’s referring to myself. Should I or should I not?
“Someone” is the person I won’t forget, the person who always appeared in my previous blogs, the 1st person that hurts me the most, someone who I had fun with, and she is the person who doesn’t call my name before.



Imagine that you know that person for 1 year and you haven’t heard she call you by your name, and you don’t think she remembers your name too. Sad, a simple name but cant been heard from her mouth. She is a person who is talkative and not a silent type of person and yet can’t call a simple name out. What can we say? Do I really exist? Or, am I her enemy? Its clueless not matter what your assume it to be.



Words are indeed something important and not to be used in everything. Someone told me that words that are not reality verbally such as from chat room or messenger stated that word comes out from those chatting tools are not countable as compared to real life face to face interaction. Is it means like, when someone told you that their sick or whatever and do we need to trust it or what? Words came out no matter from face to face chat or from chatting tools chat were very important as feeling of a person can be determined whether they are happy, sad, grumpy, aggressive or defensive. It doesn’t mean that when someone is stressed up, they must find a person to express their feelings. So maybe not willing to see anyone and may well using chatting tools as intermediaries for communicating. She uses to tell me that you can’t predict whether what the person is thinking through chatting tools. Well hell ya, sorry to tell you that what you wanna type for me I predicted earlier than how fast your hands can type.



People’s feeling is a prior for taking care of coz you may hurt someone accidently and causes you to have lesser network of friends. Telling hurtful words may just kill a person’s mood. It’s good for a person to always stay calm and try to understand why she done that? Is it purposely to release her anger or due to other reasons? No matter how much feelings you have for the person, I can assure you will not able to take it when come to the extent where she really “kek (Cantonese)” you until “vomit blood”. Not to say that you’re picking for a fight with her and she is the one provokes you into quarreling. Well, someone may have quarreling as a hobby, nothing is impossible.



Please understand that don’t make a person cares you a lot and lastly you kill a person out of your life. It’s unfair for a person to being hurt until the deepest ground. You wont know how painful especially when the person you love hurts you the most. Well, try it then you know it. “Mari cuba cuba, cuba sekali hari hair mau” nice quote rite? Haha, well such things were complicated to be understood. “Life is too serious, why not just play and act?” from Wong yih tyng’s quote. Well I’s almost graduating, now was my final exam period. So, needa study like mad for it. Kill kill kill and die die die. 4 strong subject were famous for its failing rates. Scary indeed. So, I would like to end this now. Just concentrate wholly on my studies and 1 more thing, I may have graduated 1 more month but I will be at Sg long after graduating coz I will work at KL while staying at here. This place is more peaceful and I’m with my beloved car. Just can’t wait to graduate with my 1st car I paid for it… hohohohoho~~~~




mEng LunG (明龙)

shine to me please~~ 27 March 2008 at 1.57am

I need more than the sun to shine up my life... I’m in the cold, lonely and dark abyss that none light has ever shined through...

I’ve been searching for exits out of these ruins... each way leads me into a dead end where something lies within... steps of "them" were noticed from a far place and makes me to run even further deep into it... sides and sides I’ve been through yet I cant find the way out... the noises are getting near as my heart is pumping more faster than normal...

Suddenly, I saw light from a certain direction... I rejoice, thus forwarding towards the source of light... a big hole was there when I reach the place... noises were too near to be heard... I decided to jump into the hole... I shouted, and I found out that the hole is wide; too dark to see anything... it feels like being into a place with a boundary less world... I landed into this abyss, I felt intensive coldness that shivers me to the bones... my body is in vain... the hands and legs, shivering along with the cold environment yet I still running towards my exit...

"Where is it??"
"Why is this place cold and lifeless??"
"What is happening here??"
"Safe me, anyone if your out there!"

Those were my thoughts for now... why haven’t I found anyone around here?? And why I can’t reach the light even there is nothing blocking me??
The noises were not to be heard since I jump into this area...

Please, I do hope to get back the light... at least something shining to me so I will gain my power... a hope that will save me from this misery... I don’t wanna stay in this area anymore... I felt that I’m lifeless here... a body with an empty soul...
Not now, not just now to be lost here... I’m a person that have great friends following me around and lastly I got ended up in such place... please comeback to me my observer, intelligence, courage and judgment... where are you guys have been?? I need you guys now in my life to guide me through every moment in my lives... help, help me now!! I beg u my friends..!!

the light... it was still far away, its a very small source of light... and the power is still strong enough to keep me going... this light(hikari) is my savoir but first, I need to obtain it before my lives expires...

Light, light, light
Where are you hiding now? lifeless human... you have no chance of survival... surrender yourself to us... its better to join us rather than keep getting the things that is not possible to have... you lose human... you lose...

These words were spoken as I proceed straight to the light...

Light, light, light
I may have your blessings, save me with your strength... I have every faith in you... you are my light that shines upon me... you’re my hope for survival... and with you, I may get back my friends... I need you... hikari ga... doushite hikari ga... bokuwa jettaini taoshe... bokuwa no akiramenaide... hikari go boku suki desu... hontou ni.. suki desu... yare yare... itsuka kitto hikariha mieruhazu...

to be continue...

mEng LunG/ Baby DraGon_vErgiLe

March 19, 2008 at 2.06am

yoZzz! i balik dah kawanZzz ku~~

hi... apa khabar semua~~~ a very good day to you guys ;-)

at last... presentation, midterms, and assignments were out of my schedule~~ its wut i shud celebrating for such a long period bz-ing with those coursework...

wut shud i blog-in today... haih, finish coursework dy... stress level is decreased by 70%... left now is stress from other sources~~ tak kira financially, family and friends or relationship problem... all still waiting for me to solve it...

no matter how izit? something new arrives here... a new approach towards networking that opens a new path for any alternative i chooses... well, its a good start for me after all...

now is the time, the time to polish back wut i really am... no more the one who create disaster, a destroyer, despair or etc... one shud be changing now, new hope arises... a hope for improvement again is awaken from within that shud patching things up~~

lastly... finals is juz around the corner... after 3 more weeks.... life gonna be tough... sigh, hope im still at year 2... wut to do... sigh~~



DraGoN_mEng LunG~~

Best I Ever Had

To AC,


This song was recommended by someone nice I knew. Quite “sam pat” and lot things can be joke around with her. She and her roomie~~ “ah fat” always can be ‘kacau-ed’ anytime 24/7(24 hours 7 days). I wonder why she send me nice songs suddenly, izit influence from her “giLa” roomie or what because from the person I know, she is in doubt “siao”, totally “siao”… need throw her in tampoi or tanjung rambutan. Or just lock her inside outside house… hehe~~ sorry “ah fat” ;-)

Back to the title, the song is called “Best I Ever Had” sang by Vertical Horizon, a band that consist with a number of 4 magnificent man and was formed in the year 1990. This song was out on the end of the year 1999. Well this song was awesome and I wish to dedicate it to someone I mentioned before in previous blogs~~ and that particular person is AC. Hope the song I pick for you were appropriate to be applied on how your image or so called “reputation” that are within me all these while~~

Ohya... bout this song, hope you guys found it or heard it. I guarantee this song will do goods in your ears. Try to download it. It’s worth to get urself a copy of such nice song or you guys prefer to purchase original copies?? It's your decision.

Lastly, I will provide you with the lyrics of this song. Nice, lovely, simple and meaningful song.


mEng LunG

Vertical Horizon - Best I Ever Had
So you sailed away
into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now

Chorus:
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had

So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
leaves me down and lonely

Send it in a letter

Make yourself feel better

Chorus:

But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
You're just the best I ever had

And it may take some time to
patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
run away and hide
And I may find in time that
you were always right
You're always right

So you sailed away
into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
love can be so boring

What was it you wanted?
Could it be I'm haunted?

Chorus:
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I don't want you back
You're just the best I ever had
The best I ever hadBest I ever...

Feb 21, 2008 at 12.09am

Hi, lastly I decided to updated my blog~~~


CNY is over and bz week are coming due to assignment date lines, midterm exams, activities and etc. What a short holiday but yet it was so relaxing. (Except for the thesis part). Times left so much and now, it was less than 2 months before graduated from UTAR. Damn, I’m gonna miss this place because of the frens I usually go lepak together and the times spent during college days.

Graduation, izit means by getting separated from buddies or cliques and not to meet after this whole graduation thing???

There is a sentence, "once a fren, and alwiz a fren" I guess this word was commonly used by me on any conversation with my buddies. "Hai heng tai, mou khai kau la" Cantonese... if brothers, dun kira so much la~~ haha!!

Seriously, really will miss the person I knew here... G,Ct,JL,Et,LM,Yc,F,Tl, and also EC, fellow classmates, group mate, UTARians and more.

But den, special misses to the person called AC... this person, I’m gonna be missing h** a lot... hard to say such thing but, I think I will miss h** more than other people I knew... anyhow, cant do anything bout it anymore, graduation is just around the corner...

AC, this person... damn special, tall tall, wears specs, keep saying that need to keep fit by skipping dinner to accompany h** frens for dinners... man, I think this is what I will miss a lot... ntg more can compare to this particular person... really no choice, graduation soon, ntg to say la~~ haha!!!

Well, AC someone that was familiar to me... a person that was like myself due to similarity on quite number of aspects except for different opinion in certain sensitive issue.. AC, by all means was mirror-ing the person I am all the while. AC was the person who really made me chat without any constraints or hidden issues, we both chat very well either in MSN or face to face or during phone calls... I won’t fear chatting with a person like AC... Anything can be chatted to AC

AC, a special person to me??? For now, yup... AC represents a lot of goodness on why AC was so special to me... hehe... AC was a lot better than anyone I knew, at least having similarity with me...

but... AC now is different, AC turned into a well fine g**, and it was a pleasure to get to know AC during my "yam char" with my roomie, F... if h* did not ask me to sit down to have a cup of tea, I dun think I ever have a chance to get to know a great AC..

Although there are times that I’m downed due to AC, I will still be glad becoz I gonna met such a good g**...



to AC,
if u read this post... I hope u dun scold me or pinch me until my bruises turn "blue-black".... haha... I really appreciate u a lot... thx AC for being in my life...



mEng LunG

Should or shouldn’t I..??

Hmmm… it’s playing in my mind again, as usual with the help of thesis, assignments, coming presentation and of coz mid terms!! Every sleepless nights, it keep spinning in my mind especially thesis that was to be handed around 15 February. It’s something that kills a person’s energy as we need to sleep to regain energy we lost during the day. But it seems that this was gonna be an obstacle for a person to regain our energy through a good nite sleep. Obviously, with those “things” spinning in my head, there is no chance for me to have a “good” nite sleep. It was useless unless I open my text book and start studying. I guess it was a good method for gaining sleeping orderly~~ haha! Sorry, but I haven’t tested it yet... I certainly hope that these “shit” were over and I can at least gain some sleep “without” any worries… BAGERO!!!

Well, the title of coz is not for me to juz write bout sickening mid terms or assignments rite?? These study tasks are compulsory where there were no choice for a person to whether “should or shouldn’t” complete it… compulsory, if not… fail forever… I mean it, forever~~

Should or shouldn’t… erm, hard to decide, hard to accept and hard to reject.

1) Hard to decide. Based on what happened lastime, I do have been trained to be alert towards whether to proceed or abandon the things I’ve started during year 2 sem 3. It was hell, but I gained a very important thing that what a life should be included and it’s called “LOVE”. I already had gone through hells and pits, what else more that would be worse for me?? Haha... See, tougher already rite?? No choice, experience teaches a human into how to survive living. Each wrong step creates more defenses towards the similar problem a person faced. This time, what I wanted? Will I try or just abandon..? Listen to your heart, half of the part says I should really go on but another part says that I shouldn’t go on..? What choices do I have?

2) Hard to accept. Whenever a person harms or hurt you, will you be able to say words such as “I forgive you on what you’ve done before” or “Get the HELL out of my sight!!” Well, it depends on which type of attitude a person has. Forgiving is something kind but izit worth for a person to be forgiven for the mess he/she created..? It’s better to ask yourself what is forgiving at the 1st place before chooses to forgive someone. Plz bear that in mind, you hafta be sure how your level of tolerance was over a wrong doing. If not, you made a wrong judgment.


3) Hard to reject. On what I had known, memories were meant to be kept within our self not matter it was ending happily or sadly. Good memories encourage a person to accept back what a person is, while bad memories usually driven off acceptance for a person. Man… sometimes it was unfair but life goes on. Either you die or I die. Anyway, based on what you had for the person… u may not going to be cold hearted to hurt a person, therefore you will have to try to find ways to make a distance between both parties. As a result, losses were minimal and the word “hurt” was not applicable in any of such matter…

Although there was something bad done by AC, I won’t just gonna push her away becoz I done mistakes when it wasn’t should be in the 1st place. I had blamed myself for not asking or consulting with a person I knew. It wasn’t merely your fault and I understand it well enough. Although I was abit disappointed during that period, it takes times to heal. And I guess it’s enough time for healing now.

Haha!! Wut da heck, it was like in economy or finance classes becoz until the word “minimal” were used… omg… this is what happen when a person barely control his lose mind~~ what to do… my last sem, gonna strive hard towards every obstacle that was new to me… its time to end this “shYt” and quick celebrate Chinese New Year with my love ones~~



DraGoN_vErGiLe

6 JAN 2008~~ nice lyric and song!!

This sickenning songs i heard from stupid Kent... damn him... hav such song... suites the scenario im having~~~ damn damn damn... anyway, thx for ur blog's recommendation~!!
the song title is "Just So You Know" by Jesse McCartney.. its damn nice... and well, sings out wut i wanted... kaka!!! joking.. anyhow, i juz post up the lyrics~~ try to get the song ya.. and plz, dun download... heard dat alot ppl caught and fined for illegal downloading~

I shouldn't love you
but I want to,
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you
but I can't move
I can't look away

I shouldn't love you
but I want to,
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you
but I can't move
I can't look away

And I don't know
How to be fine, when I'm not
Cause I don't know
How to make a feeling stop

(the chorus starts here)

Just so you know
this feeling's taking control of me
and I can't help it
I won't sit around
I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go, of you
but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know

It's getting hard to, be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
and look the other way

And I don't know
how to be fine, when I'm not
Cause I don't know
How to make a feeling stop

Just so you know
this feeling's taking control of me
and I can't help it
I won't sit around
I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I tried my best to let go, of you
but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know

This emptiness is killing me
and I'm wondering why I've waited so long
Looking back I realize,
it was always there just never spoken
I'm waiting here...
been waiting here

Just so you know
this feeling's taking control of me
and I can't help it
I won't sit around
I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I tried my best to let go, of you
but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know

haha~~ tot of posting something... to all jesse mccartney's fan, he is really something!! jesse forever!! hehe!!

DraGoN~!

4 JAN 2008 at 1.20am

Wut I am? Like a lost soul... without existence and everything... experienced teach me well, there is a hell lot of guidance to wut a person had gone thru his life...

its a good tips to make sure that similar things wont happen in the future~~ anyhow... when someone expects the worst, it doesn’t mean they will end up broken... miracles can happen... but once if you think your loss, everything is finish..

Be strong, built up defenses for yourself... it may reduces more losses... tough up yourself, brace for more unexpected things... life is a learning ground for living, a defeat doesn’t mean there is no winning in our lives~~ everybody is given a chance to win, it depends on how a person get the chances and the opportunity to go on with the chances.. Please bear in mind that, it’s hard to get back chances that were always around our lives...

Appreciate every chances you get, by then its even worth if you miss the chances... get hurt as much as possible... you would get stronger... every step bring us to victory... yeah~! And lastly, dun forget there are alwiz someone who watches us~~

I am called DraGoN by someone... and I will alwiz stick to becoming a DraGoN no matter wut had happen~~ ;-)



DraGoN~~