I love you very much~~ I don’t know how much I loved you and how deep I love you... I really felt that you’re the right person for me... at least, the most perfect person for me...
You told me a lot thing about yourself although those things are not on the good side... to love a person, we have to ignore the past of that particular person... I have my dark age too... if you could accept me for such person, why dun I accept you for being that kind of a person... to love someone, I really just love you for who you are and not anything else... if your a bad type of person, I dun even care about it... as long as I got to take care of you, sitting beside you and watch you smile and be happy... that's all what I need... sometimes when you told me about going clubbing or what, I hope can stop you... but I’m not your anyone... I’m just your friend; it's just that I really care for your safety... I don't want you to get into trouble and the most important is that I don’t want anything bad happen to you...
Seriously, if there is something happen to you... I wouldn’t go on with my life anymore... life would be meaningless if without u by my side... it would be hard to me to survive...
Actually, I continue my studies for you... I know that your not that good in your studies... that had make me to have a mission for staying back in year 3... I don’t want you to be a failure... I don’t want you to suffer in your life... so that day when you ask me to edit your assignment... I really put my whole effort for that assignment to ensure that you will obtain high assignment marks and as well as high in coursework marks... I want you to be success... As long as you’re happy with what you had achieved... I will be happy too...
Now, I just wanted you to finish your studies… I hope you can make it until you’re graduated from the university... I don’t hope to be anyone important in your life... just that if u could SMS or call me, telling me any news about you and that's just enough for me...
So, I will help you at any cost!! I won’t let you down~~~ trust me... you can count on me... as long as that thing makes you happy... I would be ready to sacrifice anything for you to make sure you will have better life... and of coz, I don’t want anything in return from you... not anything from you... I don’t want to gain rewards by helping you... I volunteer to help you... I don’t want you to be my love too... simply for better understanding, I don’t want you to be important in my life... you just carry on to be a happy person... and of coz, I wanted you to take care of yourself... at least be more healthier, don’t get starved too... you always wanted to be slim... but for me, your just too gorgeous... too perfect now.. So why you wanted to make something perfect to be imperfect... women are hard to understand... trust me~~~ my eyes wont lie to me… what I had saw and told you… that was all my true feeling for you…
I learn a lot thing from you…
The 1st thing I learned is to really and deeply love someone. This was the happiest thing ever happen to me. I really loved a person and I loved her so much… I couldn’t believe that this was happening to me… and I was glad to love someone, at least I understand the feeling of loving someone~~ see, my heart won’t lie to me too… I follow my heart, it gives me any signal… I will just follow
The 2nd thing is that when you love someone, please don’t assume the opposite party will have the same feeling towards you… u cant assume something like this, you must explore… explore until you had found the right answer, the answer will satisfy you although you maybe ended up with a sad story… please, dun ever have 1 sided love… you will be in trouble if you do that!!
The 3rd thing is to sacrifice. Sacrifice anything to gain your love ones. Time, money, health and a lot more… it’s very worth to love someone if you compare with those… I still remember when I have assignments, and final exams… I still go find you and teach you the subject that I didn’t studied before… its hard, but I felt great… if proves that I’m capable into handling an unfamiliar subject within a few hours… I still can arrange the busiest time in order to have you accompanied too…
The last thing is the experience for me to love someone. Although it didn’t go like what I had planned, but at least I know what to do next when I appear to be in loved with another person… I know when to be there with you and not with you…
So, this blog… I hope you didn’t see it… I just post up so that someone else could understand me more… at least understand how serious I am in my life… not just because I always smile will means that I doesn’t have any problems in my life… I hope I will be in loved with someone else… hehe~~~ waiting now, don’t know who’s the new target now… but of coz I have someone listed in my mind… haha! Hope one of them will be my gal~~
If not then I think I better graduate and find a nice job… by that time, hope can improve myself… I will be better and better, even better to win the hearts of the particular person… trust me!! Everything can settle!! No fear~!!
vErGiL ;-)
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