What I am?

Am I someone that being branded as a person that fools around anytime and everywhere?

Am I a person that treats love relationship as a toy?

Am I a person that has a lot of people understands what I really am?

I really dun have the answer.

1st of all, I’m still wondering who I really am. I still can’t accept the fact that there are a lot of friends or unknown out there that thought I was a person who was always fooling around. I wonder how many cliques I had mix with? The person I mix a lot and was so close is with my gang~~ G, C, EL, M, YH and lastly ER. Other that the people I mention here, I dun think I’m closer to anyone other than them. So how could “one” possibly ask other people about me when I just mix with them? Those answers were not what “one” was searching and yet it may prove to be a fraud. If “one” compared the answers of the people that was close to me such as the above (G, C, EL, M, YH and ER) with those that was just a normal friend, I dun think it would be the same in fact the answer given by close friends were usually treated as a fake. People would think that close friends will help their friends too. But that is true; you mix with someone long enough. Automatically, every step made by you would be notice by them. If not why we called it as “heng tai” if a person dun understands you as what you are? Are they so blinded? I dun think so.

When it was a fake, a lot of people will believe. When something is true, people will not trust. This is something that was already a norm in the society.

So, this is how I’m being branded and soon I will be marketed as a defect product. Isn’t it great? Quality was judge before sending to inspection.

Things that I told “one”, was so true. How could a person that often get hurt by girls suddenly play girls? This was something that would kill me a lot that 9 lives were not enough to cover it up. A person that doesn’t believe usually was influenced by something. Or either, “one” had a bad image of a person before anything starts and maybe “one” did not have enough confident on a person. “One” should have his/her own perception of the person and judge someone not through listening to others, it would be best to explore what kind of person he/she is. And also, emotion drags into someone to be so harsh and so hurt in their words. That is how misunderstanding occurs as word was gushing out too painful to accept. Emotions play a killing role if the person was so particular in words used by “one” and “one” doesn’t think of he/she was bound to say. The victim only can listen and any reply or answering to her words will be ignored in such stage. It’s good to avoid someone that was to emotionally intact, then the person will not being hurt deeply.

Anyhow, it’s up to how you guys will think about me. I dun give a f*** of how you guys think either. I just will be what I am. No f*** at all. If you think that I’m bad, go to h***. I don’t need you to judge me as what kinda person I am. I know myself very clear than anyone else. And remember, my name is mEng LunG. I’m not other people. Please remember that. Remember what a person told you and remember how the past of a person is before you could judge that person. If not, you will end up being taken away by a word we called as misunderstanding. I appreciate my friends around me especially those were very close to me. I dun need to tell anything to them, they just know my nature automatically even without communication. I love you guys. Friends forever. ^_^

DraGoN